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I Feel kind of sad

  i know this world is a wide big place. there's a million people i'm yet to meet, thousands of memories yet to make, thousands of people who is gonna find it interesting to talk to me and know what's going inside my mind and the ones who appreciate my thoughts... that sounds amazing i think that's the meaning of life, life lies in all those moments but now i feel like i'm just struck in this small city in India. there's more out in this world?  yes.. new people new experiences, people who vibe with me, at least a ten thousand men who would be longing for my love and find me extremely amazing and beautiful, i know world is amazing but the thing is i feel like im struck here, what if life does'nt offer me the chance to meet those amazing people, what if i am gonna just struck here with these assholes all my life, the assholes who does'nt care and doesnt find me worthy,,,, that's a depressing thought,.. there's more in this world but i'm just struck in this little world.  Im 21 and it already feels like half of my youth is over and spend in darkness and in a nerdy anti social little world, well i was busy building a worthy career to be labelled as a successful individual but deep inside there's more things i want from my life, maybe i'm not sure if i can acheive those in my coming 20s, a long 10 years of 20s are awaiting i hope to make best out of it, although now it seems miserable at this point in life.. i wonder will i be this same enthusiastic energetic girl in my late 20s too when im able to afford that life i'm dreaming for myself. 

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anjima said…
hi anagha. i can really relate to that you are saying. but I think youth is when our mind is once again filled with chid like curiosity even when knowing we are adults. chill out. this world is for all of us
November 9, 2020 at 11:25 PM
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