Thoughts and hopes! Dream High!

I'm not she, I'm the Who i am.  Wouldn't change a thing to be her. Because if i am pretending to be her... then who i am..  All my experiences and what i learned, read heard makes me who i am.  I had put myself through my situation, put myself down to make them feel better about themselves. But not anymore.. i will try my best to save this girl.🙂😄 I tried to victimize myself, poor me syndrome. But nah, i am already enough, i am smart, and beautiful i just don't realise, i have conquered things which was unable by them. And my lord who saw something special in me he lifted me up. I don't have to put myself down for anything at all. I am doing my best and i am amazing.  Just be your authentic self, share your thoughts, be confident. Because you're awesome....😎

Kids who grew up with unloving and judgemental family willl turn into Anti social persona with low self esteem, they have false assumptions about themselves and about how people will perceive and feel about them, which was imprinted in their young minds since childhood. They are young and bewilderingly powerful but they don't realise, they shrink to feel unworthy and powerless because they are imprisoned by thoughts which tell them, " you ain't enough to be like them, you do every single thing wrong, you are too stupid to fit in? " didn't i heard all these in my childhood? I often talk to myself about why did i become like this, Being an anxious person, i worry too much about what others think of me. Its never a good living i know it but i am unable to change it.  I know many things, maybe i am smart and knowledgeable than i think of myself but it often feels like i am nothing. I make myself appear dumb and stupid than what i really am. Sometimes i wish somebody o...

 I know its too shallow to think so but its looks that matters to many people and good looks means you are accepted by everyone, i have been told by everyone since childhood that i am dark and black, as a kid it impacted me very much, i don't know how to get rid of my assumptions, and views that i am always judged because of the way i look. where is that smart ass Anagha, i just lost her in a world full of insecurities and judegemnet, in life i had no other option other than to succeed so i worked my ass of to get where i am now, but the childhood traumas made me a person with low self esteem, i dont know how to come out of the whole that i am in now