Thoughts and hopes! Dream High!

Be soo rooted in your self worth that not even a ounce of bullshit around you affect your mental peace, and look here anagha, all that matters to you ie you..  Be brave, chase your goals, nurture your mind. Chase those behaviors that are going to make you a better person. 😇🌻 Find the beauty within yourself.  For you all that matters is you..😇👑 yasss queen.  I dont care how I look like, I bring more to the table, I appreciate my hardwork, how hard I worked to reach where I'm, my talents, my worth, my perceptions, my family, my career, my views. I love the person who I'm.  I do not look for potential partner at this point in life. Future holds better things. And I deserve better, the kind of interesting personality, the guy of guy I can jump with, I shouldn't be desperate, my time will come...  Now loving and appreciating who I'm. Valuing my inner worth.  I stay in lane for people who do the same. I dont have to betray myself to keep someone else warm. Ke...

I love who I'm. My thoughts, views, ideas, perspectives everything makes who I'm. I'm not gonna stay back because of some belief or someone. I own earth as much as anyone.. I own me. I owe me a better life. I just love me, sky, amazing parents and family, colleagues, my favorite food, laying on bed at the end of the day and relaxing, my room, random curious topics, earth, newton, chopin classics, Beethoven, piano, nature, surroundings, beaches, aurora borealis, fjords, lakes, wind, biriyani, orange tinged Dawn's are my thing, my beautiful room, my ideas, everything I own. And grateful to god who love me soo much that he granted me so much in my life. I know sometimes I'm just a naive who is unaware of his love for me.. I dont have to compare myself to anyone or anything I'm just me. Another perosn with goals and her own vision..  I live my life for me. I know life can be unclear sometimes. But you gotta shed layer by layer get the women who want to be:) dont be ...

What is love, if they don't talk and Express their feelings.. instead they live in a fictional world.. love isn't just about living together, I agree they try to give love but they don't know what it is . Love isn't just about doing all chores for me or cooking favorite foods, or buying things for me.. , there's something more... a emotional connection, to hear me..  like every family out there.. this people doesn't even tried. Due to my parents broken family life and unfriendly behavior, constant quarrelling, Narcissistic  behavior of my father.. emotionally drained and unstable mom and also due to the judgemental people I faced in my life says a lot about why I'm this way.. and why i have low self esteem, and why i feel everything too deep. It's just hard, but I know, I'm there for me no matter what, whoever give up on me. I wouldn't. All I have is me. I love me for the women I'm becoming, it took a lot of pain and healing.. I got my goals ...

 know yourself, know your worth, know your priorities,  please dont betray yourself for the sake of other, please dont be that sad little sensitive girl anymore, i know healing takes time, but be so consistent and rooted in yourself that nothing can break your awakening and growth. please dont make time for random useless things and later regret wasting your time, do the thing which is gonna make you proud in 5 years and not for random pleasure. please dont betray yourself by overthinking, please dont betray yourself by doing wrong things, please dont betray yourself by agreeing to and accepting to what you're not comfortable with, please dont betray yourself by stalking and wasting time on others, please dont betray yourself by being mad at parents and shouting at them, please dont betray yourself by being so self conscious and comaparison, please dont betray yourself by not studying, please dont betray yourself by not caring about your personal hygeine and physical health, p...

Waking upto 6ams and experiencing this beautiful sky above my home is amazing. You know, life can be complex especially for a over sensitive emotional overthinker person like me... its hard, but I'm trying to sort out things and keep myself away from falling apart.. everyday.. I constantly worry a lot, I pretend to be a badass women but deep inside I know me..  I'm a nice person like a candle, who burns herself to keep everyone else warm. this is a fragile journey for me, but the secret of life lies in our courage and bravery to overcome our own obstacles. One of the thing that constantly worries me is how I look like and feeling of not good enough? Since the childhood i was told I'm not pretty and thereof I lost my self esteem, so as a young adult I just have a false thought of everyone perceiving me just as the worthless way I think of myself, that kind of messed up my social and college life since that hinderes me from living my life to fullest and getting involved with ...

I've this feeling of missing and sadness on my new year eves, diwalis and all these auspicious times when people around the world are having fun, laughing, eating special food, and partying, especially on new years they are having the best life out there..  with friends and family while lonely me here spend the night on bed and depressed about how I'm missing about everything, not even having a special friend or person to text me and ask how I'm feeling. It just sucks to be lonely... Hearing fireworks sound makes me sad, it trigger my tears, but.. I think I should console myself. That isn't everything, every year isn't gonna be like this, maybe 5 years from now I will 25 I will have the best life, finally I'm a doctor, I earn good, I might or might find a significant other but I hope I find a worthy one.. and some genuine new friends:)  But yea reading out there on reddit made me feel better, it makes me feel good that there are more people out there who is goin...

 Its okay Anagha, world was never a fair place and it never will be, now its over, so be happy about it, focus on your mental health and to become a better version of you, and when its meant to happen it will, you don't chase love, you let it happen it by accident, you purpose is to become a badass strong women, to be a women with a goal and purpose, to chase her goals and dreams, that is to build my career, study well, build good basics, be a good empathetic doctor and be a good girl with morals never go astray in search of random filth and lust, be a women with standard, meet new people and have wonderful meaningful conversations, get over your fears and shyness, be bold and brave and speak your mind, no hindrance, you don't have to please everyone, and you don't have to take in consideration of everyone's opinion and feelings, like do they even care when they hurt my feelings ? no right, so i dont have to be a people pleaser too, well what do i earn from that nothing...

  i know this world is a wide big place. there's a million people i'm yet to meet, thousands of memories yet to make, thousands of people who is gonna find it interesting to talk to me and know what's going inside my mind and the ones who appreciate my thoughts... that sounds amazing i think that's the meaning of life, life lies in all those moments but now i feel like i'm just struck in this small city in India. there's more out in this world?  yes.. new people new experiences, people who vibe with me, at least a ten thousand men who would be longing for my love and find me extremely amazing and beautiful, i know world is amazing but the thing is i feel like im struck here, what if life does'nt offer me the chance to meet those amazing people, what if i am gonna just struck here with these assholes all my life, the assholes who does'nt care and doesnt find me worthy,,,, that's a depressing thought,.. there's more in this world but i'm just s...