Thoughts and hopes! Dream High!

this a beautiful opportunity but only if i ever believed in my abilities and appreciated myself instead of self pity.  What is skin colour even? Does it make her better? So that people could give all their attention and love to her? Does my few layers of layer skin even define who i ? I'm wiser, braver, beautiful 

I am happy to be you. Happy birthday baby ☺️ I am genuinely happy to be you.  I know how much you worked hard to reach where you're now and im proud of you.  For what that matters to u what you should focus. Anyways happy 22 babe😏🥰😚😚😚 You've grown a year older, with much more experience and wisdom. :) an year has changed a lot, perhaps a much more change in my mindset in positive directions thats why i dont panic about those things which haunted me an year back..  Still i can say I'm somewhat sad and dissatisfied in my life. Especially because of my self esteem issues, social anxiety and about how awful some people can be and that i am not able to be my real self and put myself out there, i am scared of judgements :(  I believe myself to be a nice person but i dont know...  I dont want to overthink myself into depression.  I want to stay optimistic and happy. I think the wiser you're lesser you'll be affected by external influences.  I want to bui...

Hey, this is Anagha from 2021, September 21.  An year back, it was a lot different.. i struggled every single day with feelings of worthless and mild depression or could say i was depressed.  Over an year, things has changed, not drastically, but little by little, year by year, this will improve even better in future, but i have to hang on and keep trying.  Since last year i had brought a lot of books, probably around 30, specifically self help books, they had helped me a lot to provide a better insight and perspective. And it helped me to realise where i was wrong, ofcourse its a long process I'm not fully evolved, but i can definitely feel better i am not who i was an year back. This is not a random statement but i really adore my improvement. The person who i am, i am trying to add worthfulless and meaning to who i am every single day, because years back i started to lose my authentic self, now i am slowly trying to pick my shattered pieces and put it together  In...

I just watched the movie, OCTOBER, oh wow, initially I didn't liked it.. but when it ended it left with a heartwrenching pain and with a bright smile on my face and i got these thoughts of realizations... When she died so young no matter age, as she died, only few connection of her remained in this world, those were the memories, only her loved ones.... loved her enough to recall her memories..  There were her quirks, kind of things she loved to do, she the smell of night jamine, what she loved was a part of who she was...  While she was alive, it didn't made much difference or importance.. But once she died, it made all sense, the smell of jasmine or the sight of jasmine became a part of who she was...  I do not believe in after life, definitely we just perish... and after that, the things we loved and memories are the only connection we have with the world.

Society? Isn't we all are trying to make it up in career, get married, get kids so on, so as to what society and what people want us to be..  After who is this society to tell me what should i do.. or anyone should do..  At the moment before i die only things thats gonna tear me out is the regrets and moments i enjoyed. Never the face of society. Marriage, we were told such a way, to find the one and settle down.  As i grow older, my values, and my perspectives have changed a lot and now i dont think getting married is anything at all.  Ofcourse i owe to my parents and i love them, but i have to decide for myself.  I want to explore, do adventures, discover myself and add meaning to my existence and not merely gonna spend my life all here in a small city trapped in routines and life long commitments.  Sorry, no..  Ofc finding love is a thing, i mean the compatible partner, which includes someone who find it interesting to talk to you everyday and accep...