Thoughts and hopes! Dream High!

I hope once I meet you, I'll tell you tomorrow. I just hope when it's meant to be we come along...   I know it ain't a fairy tale or something  I know we both come from areas where we have faced things, I hope you be the type of person who comes along and make my life brighter .I know I'm not solely looking for a tommy to come along and make it all alright, but more like he comes along and brings lot of goodness. Especially for my parents they deserve it. I don't know tommy.. I know I've things in my personality, reaction and everything I need to work upon, I hope by the time we meet, you helped yourself up and I'll do the same. I am glad like by 25 I'm almost more self aware than many fuckers around that's something that makes me glad :)  Tommy buddy, what you upto. Tommy kutta. I know that's silly, but I just hope, my tommie dudie be the dude who i can talk about literally anything, I hope tommy and me be the type of people who can share our sh...

I don't require a fucking person to enjoy my company. I love it fucking love it man. 😉😇🥹🤣

How beautiful!!

Since a past few days, i really wanted to write you an email. Not about any problems but about certain thoughts about life. Actually march, April, may was great that's why you never heard much from me. I was truly in love with myself 💞. But  June truly was so tough, for the fact that one person ( that muslim friend right) who left me when i was in depressive phase and now after like 8 months decided to call me and ruin my peace of mind. They were never there in the struggling phase with me instead they left, yet now trying to get back. Soo low of them.  Talking with them for like 30 mins truly traumatised me. Honestly June was such, it put me through much struggle just because of that one call.  I'm literally changing my number once this current plan expires. Because see I've literally cut off every single person I've known from college. Not exactly because they are bad. But because talking with them kind of brings old fragile, people pleaser me. I don't want that ...

See this prep phase per se was truly life changing, it helped me grow into a person i wanted to be. But surving each day wasn't the easiest.  Each day has different things to offer.. I mean i had a phase when I was truly happy and just driven..I'm still driven but some feelings still scares.  I truly mean it when i say I don't wanna work here. I don't dream of just doing that mundane thing forever and forever when I could be doing something else with my life. But listen, is there any significance or point just going in that loop.  I know now it all seems far and now might seem uncomfortable trust, last month, that that you watched the ted and sat here on the upstairs or the days when you couldn't hold on, or the day you sat here,  Those are all just beautiful memories now. Just like that this shall pass too, the point is you learn from it, and learn to push through..then it seemed like a big deal. You alone dealt with it on your own.. I know, g It's not lost lik...

Well, I don't know. I like this song very much, 

This very moment I know i wouldn't get it back, I wanna keep this to my core memory and forever.. staying here at my home, with my dad, by my side doing everything for me, my amazing dad :) And this beautiful terrace, where I can see the sky, beautiful wind, the breeze, the terrace which has seen different pages of my life, different phases of my life, it has seen me grow up. Thank you.  You have seen the crying me, dancing me, everything... This home. this is the place and my everything my dad, mom, my everything. But also I wanna get ahead , don't want to limit myself to this place all my life..  But truly this will be everything, only for the very reason, I had so many memories here and my dad, living with him for the past six months, this terrace and my room, everything I'll keep these memories in my heart :) for the person me, where i grew up, my important family, my parents and moments i cherished here that's the most important important of everything :) I know em...

Make sure you live your life! Well all I can say is!! I'm grateful and happy to be where I'm 🙃, life isn't a clean plate, only tough times do make you stronger. I'm glad whatever it really taught me. Truly grateful for everything.  For pushing me, for helping me ,. For holding me together at the toughest times. Even those were all leading point, only because of it, I was able to grow. And my most important important people, my dad and mom who did everything for I'm now. There are things I may not align with them, but truly they are great and especially my dad these days doing soo soo much, that kind of true love, I don't know anyone could find it anywhere else.  Truly for early half of our life truly our love of the life is our parents.. This fucking six months of my life was truly rejuvenating. Went through different phases, all it brought stability to my life.  I mean this last one year was the breakthrough. Tho last six years was all cumulative experiences h...

Hey there franzie 😂 Well yeah i thought of that name for you, it's kinda cute. So yeah actually same, things gotten better for me as well, there was a me in April, may times before some bad things started to come back in life in early june, so I started to be again that april me, I started to stop for a while and look at the sky and say, "hey there, thank you", I started to talk again to my plants or the birds flying by for variety of reasons 😂. Be it apologising to my plants for not watering them the other day or even talking to myself in the mirror for being awesome..  I mean it's all these silly things that matter, never the big things, big things do matter but it's always tiny tiny cumulative effect that happens everyday,  for that 100% we all need, the 1% happens every single day which people often overlook and just look at the big things.  That one percentage also includes being nice to ourselves and enjoy ourselves. After all that's the point of life ...

One thing I'll tell you when I was at my lowest moments I only had myself. This isn't for any fancy wording or anything but i mean it. I woul no longer want anyone from past.  Not even that shitter. Maybe that shitter didn't mean anything but for me it was horribly bad and fucked me up so so much . I would never forgive him for that. Shitter came at the moment and ruined my peace for a fucking one month.  Seriously this is why exs are exs for a reason and i no longer take their shit.  And this number. Very soon soon I am deleting.

This is definitely our month kutta ❤️❤️✨🪴