Thoughts and hopes! Dream High!

okay, anyways i'm here penning out my random thoughts of agony... world is so unfair, you, we were brain washed in such a way that attractive face means always attractive, not so good looking people like me are always at disadvantage, i think society and people's herd mentality is to be blamed, i never shame anyone based on looks, maybe once i did went for good looks in terms of friends or anything but not anymore, looks are completely deceiving, i had my own experience, that Russian guy, my appearnce turned him off, well i realised people's hypocrizy. they like to appear nice and kind so they appreciate even ugly people like me, but when it comes to own relationships like everyone is a hypocrie, he proved me right, well world is a grave zone, of lot of selfish souls along with some faint souls like me, im not trying to pretend to be awesosme or nice , etc i ve my own bad habits too but deep inside ima nice person i do have hatred, envy, jelousy etc its is a common problem ...

First of all unlike other girls I'm not a fan of love stories, I disgust love stories. What not they do in the name of love, but it's all about their stupid lusty feelings and attraction to good looks nothing more than that. So here my list goes, few movies which is meaningful and caught my heart! 1. Beautiful Boy - it's an amazing movie, that tells the story of a young drug addict boy, it beautifully emphasizes on the love and connection between a dad and his son. 2. Call me by your name - this is an exception, only love story I loved so far, btw it tells the summer love between two guys Elio and Oliver. This kind of gives a feeling of wanting someone special in our lives, with whom we have no restrictions, can be just the way you're. factually it's about a lusty relationship too but its beautifully portrayed. Something realistic. 3. Orphan - This is a psychological thriller, really worth a watch. Keeps you curious throughout the movie. ;) 2. Interstellar - Someth...

 would say, focus on career and build your future, than wasting time on useless relationships and waste each others time and end up in a break up. Maybe some relationships can be beneficial to career too especially when from similar career or they supportive, but that's mostly people are selfish and using you for their own happiness. I don't understand these days why they run into useless time pass relationships and end up crying. I rather be a women who pay for Bill's than depending on a man so I'm trying to build my career than wasting time on boys. At right time once you're settled, you will met the right person who matches your level and ambition. So don't spoil your energy on playboys. Esp during student life, relationship = stress! Read that again, already as a student, we are stressed out, so why do I need to invite another stress to my easy going life.Yeah there are exceptions, some relationships are really great , but its hard to find such right person ...

Society may or may not accept, but it's all about our personal and mutual decision to have sex or not. If I love him and trust my life with him, what's stopping us..😅 I consider myself liberal in this matter, though I'm from a very conservative middle class Indian family. I strongly agree as long as they are adult, its upto them, I'm a girl in my 20s and in a well reputed career and from a sound family, my family is pretty conservative and sex is kinda weird topic for us. But, lol why do we need social acceptance or are we gonna tell public and parents that we are going to have sex? I mean if they love each other, why can't they, it's just our mutual decision. But that doesn't mean I agree with stupid tons of hook ups and one night stands, that's disgusting to be honest, I can't trust my life with someone who just slept previously with tons of other women. Also lot of teens are these days are spoilt, unlike older days, these days they have more free...

Loyal and trustworthy, someone with whom I can trust my life with. Intelligent enough, educated and a good reputed career I want a man of worth who didn't messed up his youth running behind girls instead focused on studies and reached good position in life :) Straightforward and open minded. Good family background. Its okay, if he dont have one though.. Someone who loves and respect his family, that means he was brought up well. No toxic past or long list of ex girlfriends, I don't want a casanova or a fuck boy. Attractive looks, long nose :D Should have some common sense and good point of views Good humor sense, should be able to make me laugh Somedays lazy enough, just don't do anything, lay with me on the bed. Someone who can bear with all my shitty stories and ideas I'm gonna tell. Should agree with NO KIDS PLAN. we don't want kids. They are cute, but they are a huge burden, they spoil our youth, time and money. We can adopt a dog instead. I love it, when he gra...

World is unfair, totally unfair, people betray, cheat, lie, laugh at you, disappoint you and what not.. they make you miserable. Just dont ever lose hope. There is always a room for hope. You have to carry yourself because nobody else can do it for you.. there are people waiting for your downfalls like jackals waiting for its prey. But you gotta make sure, you never ever give up, suicide is like betraying yourself. Don't do that.. don't give your enemies a chance to smile at your failure..  Nobody cares if you cry, just smile and walk away, they will wonder and try to reach you!😌

Jeevithame oru nadakam alle.. maduth, odukathe english, njan on ente bhashayil parayte, enthinavo entho ee nadaka jeevitham, avr parayum you should find happiness in little things, onn parayado... how can I find happiness in my little miserable life. Maybe my life may not be miserable for a outsider, they see that i have a good family and a amazing career, but outsiders, shut the fuck up, what do you know about me? Do u know my dreams? do u know who I'm without all those factors, canceling all those parental and social expectations do you know what Anagha want from life? Do you know all the childhood traumas and judgements she faced? Your answer is No right.. you don't know what she struggled and what childhood traumas made her the person she is now... how anxious she feels when things doesn't meet her expectations, when someone ignores her texts she worries a lot, she puts others needs before her but all she get in return is pain.. thinking about my spoiled college life is...

You're smarter than you think You're loved more than you think You're prettier than you think You're something but you really dont realise, wake up anagha, love yourself. If you put yourself down. The world will put you down twice. No never.  Dont let it happen. Love yourself the way you were meant to be. Dont panic about that whether you will find true love ? Somebody will ever marry me?  You feel that because you consider yourself very low. Please stop that? You have reached much better than many of the people of your age.  You never ran behind cheap thrills, you were a dedicated and bright student when they wasted away.  Remember you're now where you desperately wanted to be.  You're living your dreams.  You're a doctor to be very soon. Dont let these shitty insecurities affect you.  You gotta get your dreams together..

What is the use if 95% of the contacts are useless..  Idk for the sake of their status viewing they r on my conatcts..  no use at all.  Maybe for any immediate use.. but.. what for if I have a emergency.. no Also I seriously believe my parents deserve a better kid than me..  I ain't a good one. They deserves someone who love them..  Someone who respects them  Maybe I think still they like me because I'm just born to them.. I wish I had a best friend to tell everything I wish I had a boyfriend with whom I can share everything  Someone with whom I can send memes  Someone with whom I can text whatever I have on mind Someone with whom I can ask opinion about my profile pics before uploading  I wish I was prettier.  I wish I loved myself better.  I wish I was something.  Now I'm nobody, easily replaceable and unlovable Why is it so easy to kill my happiness and get sad? Nobody cares, so I should stop uploading my feelings and memes ...