Thoughts and hopes! Dream High!

                         

I feel this!!

Right now it's 2:08am! I can't sleep! I m now depressed by lot of thoughts! Idk what to do!!! I feel a suffocation deep inside my heart!! There's a feeling in my head "you can't reach nowhere!! Well I have reached here from exact zero so I can trust myself i will become successful someday! I m in a delimma! Currently being 20! Most difficult age to manage! I am not the person I used to be! Priorities changed! Agressiveness towards family increased! Sometimes I can't control myself I tell myself not to, still I shout at them! I m so sorry I can't control my temper! I m such a bad daughter! I m sorry!  Increased urge for fantasies! Giving importance to unimportant people! Priority to crush! Bad attraction! Increased urge towards opposite sex! All these things are in short! There's lot more happening in my life! It's difficult to make up into words!! My best friend nowadays is depression, anxiety, shyness, cowardness, dependence, and every other...

This is one of my favourite ones which i wrote in mirakee!

Am i wierd?😓😓😌😌😌😌😌

Exactly i dont know what else to write! But have plenty of things in mind craving to write! Sometimes i feels so dumb! Exactly right now.. i dont know what i want in life!! Just going behind the herd i think! Of course career is very awesome! But i m disturbed! I dont know who i am!! I trust what they say about me! Still its a confusing question to answer 'what i want in life!' Idk may be i say like a happy good life, help people, travel etc! And love life - in a word it is "rottened" seriously yaar? No hah! Idk may be everything is infatuations! I have to wait untill i meet the Mr.Right. i have to stop falling for superficial reasons! There will be someone whose soul matches my mind and ideas!!  Exactly whats life's purpose i wonder? I m like a ordinary teen like everyone! Filled with bit of kindness, ego, selfishness, arrogance, sweetness, soberness ..  a kind of mix! So under the skies, we all people are so different everyday busy with achieving some or th...