A week earlier.. on good friday my granpa died.. i still miss him.. i love you granpa. I wanna thank you for the help you have did in your life.. you was always helpful to us! We will never forget you. I really pray for you. I wish you could have got heaven.. A week earlier everything was so different... u was struggling for life. Turning each side.. struggling for life.. i m sorry granpa.. i wish i could have done better for you... My granma did everything for you.. highest honour for her.. she's the best! My family i love you all... Friday 11:30 i was asleep and suddenly i heard a huge cry of my granma.. i was woken and i was sure it was the death because we knew his conditions were really too bad. I suddenly went to bathroom and brushed teeths.. changed a top Nd dad saw me ... he told it was over and i run towards down and saw him lifeless.. my granma was wailing ..deep inside i was shattered but i couldn't cry... i sat their for sometime... granma and molu with me.. while mom and nandhu went to shop... Things was gone... i honestly honour you grandpa... and you was always there to watch me when i was alone in home like a caretaker.. when everyone was out i still remember 100 of days like that.. thanks granpa.. i hope your soul could read this! Jesus take care of my granpa.. one day we all gonna die.. but losing someone is so depressing.. i can't believe even now... idk life seems so different now.. what to do.. life has to go on! Even my granma is getting old.. i m too scared for her.. jesus long live my granma.. i wish i could give 8 more years frm my life span to her.. i love you acha amma and everyone.. i regret every time i was fighting with all.. i m so sorry.. my world means my family... and idk i wanna write a lot.. but o could gather anymore words now.. pain is like deep weight or heaviness in chest.. tears means nothing.. pain is different... During this funeral days we were all together after a long time.. and cherished and the sadness was obscured for a temporary period.. now today everyone is gonna leave.. leaving me mom dad and granma alone.. no.. i couldn't do anything.. I feel numb.. this depression hinders me from studying but exam is near so i couldn't stop studying.. but all i know is that i need a short break.. leaving everything and be with family.. hahha.. i love my family time.. gossiping etc we are the best family... love you all.. Last week friday April 19.. 2019 good Friday.. 11 30 am my grandpa left us.. but that day morning me and molu were sad ..we cried and we predicted his death because his conditions were too bad..we called shobamma that morning around 3am to ask how was he... because we was too scared..
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