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Such a Sad life!

I wish someone existed who understand me in my college or home or anywhere with whom i can hug and cry and cry and cry and wash away my deep rotten sadness… I wish this 5 more year went fast. So then i will be a graduate and i can travel somewhere and live like what i want my life to be..
Now here i just wearing a mask.. idk.. here everyone here know that me.. nobody knows real me.. i wish for some happiness in life. AND people are so bad right! A girl i considered her my best friend.. but she dumped like she now don't message me much dont reply etc.. i never had a best friend in my life.. 😭😭😭 everyone already have besfriends so i was like out… Loner since childhood.. i hope atleast married life will be atleast good.. because i have nevered experienced good friendship or love. Expect family i love them they love me.. but we don't talk much.. just everythingg formal between us
: And i m like always depressed etc.. not especially because of studying stufss.. these colleagues everything is so stupid.. even u can assure that i m the dumbest kid ever.. i m so introverted and so awkward.. nobody likes talking to me i guess.. only people talk if they want something from me..i have been through lot of emotional breakdown.. and i know i m the only reason for all my problems i just over think and simply idk.. I'm such a loser.. i think i have some bipolar issue i guess
And i know it after reading this.. u will be clueless what to say and why i m saying all my bullshit here.. I'm sorry i m such a loser...

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