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I'm missing lot of things in life

Im depressed because i feel like im missing out lot of things in life. :( u know now im in 2nd year of my course(medicine) i really dont have any funful or happy moments in college because i have no real friends:(.
I feel like im wasting my youth. Sometimes i feel like dating, hang out with a guy, attend a concert, travel far away, travel to beach, alone times etc and lot of stuff. and stuff like every youth do.. but i can't.. because i have to sacrifice a lot of time for my studies.. also family wont allow me dating a guy.. because my family is very conservative. Please dont consider our life compared to youth in usa and Europe. Ofc. American snd European teens have more independence and no family
restrictions.. but here im all dependent on my family because lifestyle here is like that. If we move out it is seen as arrogance.
Because u know this fruitful days of life, my 20s are like losing for my career goals, but by 30 i will be a good doctor, but at what cost? My youth is paid as the price, i have no beautiful memories to remember about my 20s.. its all wasted in mugging books.
Rn im 20. This course finishes only on 2024 when im 25. So u know im gonna waste my fruitful years in collge. College life is shit because i have no friends and im an introvert.. so no love life.. never dated.. no cheeseful moments :( all i have is days im worriying about how will i study the vast syllabus, and sometimes when i get too depressed i just vent here or talk with random starngers. Ofc i can study i will do better but no lively happy life moments.
Ofcourse other doctors or medical students wont have this problem because they have good socially involved life and good moment's with friends or bf or gf.
Also i have zero self confidence:( im trying to build to some. Idk if im ugly or not.. sometimes i look normal. 
Sometimes i look very bad. Idk maybe the issue with my perception:(. 

I know i can find true love of my life
someday. So im not worried about relationships. What Im just worried about is im losing my youth. :(
Also i cant change my career, it costs a lot and i cant embarrass my family so i just have to move on with this.. still idk i felt like i should share my depressive episodes with someone.. 

I know everyone have some kind of depression in thier life right:(
Sorry for bothering everyone with my sad story :(

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