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I wish I could die peacefully

I'm tired of everything. 
I wish I could die tomorrow peacefully after having full of my favorite food, friends and family are here and I'm listening to my favorite music and then kiss my mom and dad and then in a moment God should take away my breath and then this lifeless body of mine lay here..
then eventually, they will bury it after some rituals, only thing that belongs to me in this earth is a jar of ashes. I don't own anything else. 
Maybe my parents and family will weep and will be sad about my demise. 
But life goes on.. they eventually have to realize that I'm no more . And have to move on.. 
Afterlife of mine, honestly I've no idea. Hope God will accept me because I haven't done much sins. All I did was I just have some anger issues so sometimes I used to shout at parents. 
I was a good human when I was alive. I used to spread smile and help people. Though they was rude at me.
Once I'm gone. Nobody owes me and I dont owes anyone..
Maybe I've to repay my parents the love they have given me and all the dreams they had on me.. but I'm sorry! I've no other choice. I cant think straight. 
I literally want to end everything. 
I don't see any reason to live anymore. Maybe I can't see anything because sadness and darkness is covering me right now. 
Wish God could take away my soul as soon as possible!

©anagha_

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