im not desperate for love, but sometimes its like its nice to have someone who care for you and to hug me and tell its okay even when everything is falling apart! how do i stop being over sensitive! cant even trust a soul, people sucks, a bitch friend said she will always be there for me and was pretending to be nice, in real she sucks she was manipulative and trying to put me down. i was too stupid to overshare my feelings with her, now i feel bad, my strong women image is fallen, they consider me weak now,, i dont know what to do, i dont share my feelings with people in my real life or my parents, i really love them but i grew up with some distance from them so im uncomfortable sharing my feelings with them. my life in my home is restricted to my room, i rarely go out, i grew up anti social, lot of reasons, many bad childhood traumas, manipulative high school friends who made me feel like shit, lot of bad incidents made my self esteem very low, i really didnt knew who i was or what i wanted in life, some how by gods grace i reached so far in life and academically succeeded than everyone who bullied me that time. other than gods grace what can i say about it, though im trying to build my long lost self esteem and finding who im. but sometimes all my long created insecurities creeps in. the stupidest thing about me is im so nice even to people who dont deserve it, they take it for granted, and fuck, that makes me feel miserable. how do i stop oversharing everything with unnecessary people in my life......................
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