I'm really wondering why all the bad and sad things just happening to me? Though I'm really a nice person.. I wish I could cry like a baby, and nobody will consider me weak then.. Being an adult, everyone considers a crying person weak, sometimes i wait till night to cry alone.. asking myself why the fuck I'm not good enough at anything.. I wish I had the balls to kill myself, but I dont know, something is stopping me..
All is that I know nothing! It's too easy to become proud of little you know. But how funny it is for early all years of our life, it's that we are gaining experiences and just knowing to be you and how to make better decisions and grow and you know how to just survive life. I know life is a beautiful beautiful thing! I have been blessed with truly wonderful family if I'm being honest, I haven't really made know what's it is not to struggle. Well I am not all blessed in some other ways, I had struggle so much with my self esteem, I just didn't knew who i was for the 24 years of my life. Only very recently I started to love myself and you know who I am. It's been a journey. Truly a journey of learning and unlearning. It's so crazy like how they say, we know up, imbibe and for teenage you struggle to find the you, and early 20s your transformative year. Personally 21 to 24 was horrible as well. 24 was fun, but I was too superficial. In life what we all s...
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