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Okay, the problem is the guys I'm into is not interested in me..
See being a young girl of 20 we always fall for sweet charming youthful boy, so am I..  I easily catch feelings for him..
The saddest part I they dont feel the same for me.
I'm very stupid, that I make them my only source of happiness, overthink about him, day dream about him.. and what not, marriage, a whole future and scenarios with him and eventually when he let me down, like when they lose interest in me and text late or not at all.
Finally when they ghost me i can't bear the pain.. 
So that left me in broken pieces. 

These all are generally happening in online life, because real life too i get attracted to guys, but i dont have the balls to talk to them or so.. I'm so shy and awkward so I even dont or never had any guy friends.  
I'm now just broken, the 2 guy I was into let me down. 
They dont feel the same I feel for them, they dont have the enthusiasm to talk to me at all. 
One of them ghosted me and another guy is not interested at all. I guess I'm a burden to him..
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