20 years of life as a girl, I've stayed behind everything and worried about everything and everyday used to cry because of my appearance, i was shy and introvert because I used to think it was all about appearance and people will hate to be with me. So only option was to be a people pleaser and agree with whatever they said.. I had no voice of my own. I was a sideline character in everyone's life..
I had enough from everyone..invited people's toxicity into my life and it messed my 20 years of life, I was a people pleaser, placed people's need before mine, got mistreated, disappointed, betrayed by them, cried myself to sleep because they avoided and ignored me I was a loner mostly, they disagreed with whatever I said, they considered me dumb and not enough.
They said I'm not smart enough, not attractive enough, but young naive me believed them...
They made me feel I'm ugly and not good enough, all the chantings I heard since I was a kid, "you're unattractive" shut the fuck up, I'm the best. Its better to be who I'm than fucking pretending to be what I'm not.
Its definitely not all about looks, people are beautiful as only they care and love, you never feel the same love for the person who mistreat and put you down... once.
Appearance is deceptive. Ofcourse we are naturally attracted to attractive people. Its human nature , but just because I dont meet society defined beauty standards doesn't mean im not enough, I'm beautiful as any other fucking women in this universe.
It's time to kick all my insecurities and low self esteem issues...
I'm not a girl anymore.. I'm a woman of 21 years soon to be..
A brave smart amazing women... and ofcourse successful.
Since they told me I'm ugly, only option in my life was to be academically successful so yea I took that golden opportunity and I'm glad I worked hard and got this far, I'm soon to be a Doctor. Isn't that amazing. Once it was a dream but now my reality, yea sometimes studying sucks, but I'm really where I'm I wished to be...
I wasn't always like this, but lot of neglect from their side gave me enough disappointments and made me upset nothing else. It's no good for my mental health to do good for them and expect the same from same.
I should first realise what I'm and what my life is for me.
I'm not here to live their life, its mine, I was born and was brought up this far thanks to my parents and me as a struggler worked hard to reach where I'm now.
Their opinion about me doesn't define me, 20 years made me who I'm now. I learned enough, as a teenager I struggled enough, enough and enough, not any more.
I realize, change begin within me. Yea external factors can influence me, that's why I'm not gonna let anyone or anything gonna affect my inner well being..
I'm changing into that better Anagha that confident and brave and smart and beautiful anagha! Which I always was, but suppressed. now I need to embrace and bring it out.
Why should I hide myself. I'm no way inferior to anyone. I'm fucking awesome... and equivalent to anyone else.
I shouldn't keep my mouth shut, my opinion and words worth as anyone else's. Let the amazing things and stories I wanna say, let it come out, no more hindrance, nothing should stop me anymore..
I should keep my head high, because I'm the best :)
20 years taught me enough, yeah most people mess their early 20s too, but I don't want to, my teenage was enough and taught me enough, now as a Adult Anagha, I should be mature enough and should be able to get up and deal with life, and not like some silly people, who just do nothing but just be a victim and cry over lust over thing, mess their life and cry and regret, instead of taking a action..
I shouldn't be like them., I should utilize my opportunities and come out of my shell.
I got this far, and yeah ofcourse there's a bright future ahead of me. Only hindrance was my mind. But now I got up, not to fall anymore but to reach more heights. No shortcuts but through pain and hardwork...
Crave a beautiful life for yourself
Your future self should be proud of yourself
Dont indulge in all nuisances.
Don't involve with toxic people.
Cut off whoever bringing you worry.
Put yourself first,
Lift YOURSELF UP.
speak and stand for yourself.
Learn your lessons diligently
Avoid toxic social media.
Slowly cut off toxic habits and crave your life into a new good way.
Respect and love your parents.
You should realize, your family is the only permanent thing in your life. So your priority should be family and crave a future for yourself.
Dont be a people pleaser anymore..
Their opinion about me doesn't define who I'm.
Learn to say no. It's not my duty to make everyone happy, self goes before anything and everything.
Take away ego, but should keep your self respect.
Don't search for that person, dont be a herd follower like them, don't fall for looks. A person is worth more than what the appearance shows, it's what matters is what's inside.
Build yourself untill you come across that quality Man, now just focus on building better you!
Don't be that childish Anagha, anymore, you're a woman now!!
SO YEAH, 20 YEARS TOUGHT ME ENOUGH, NOW I'M Gonna be 21 IN 2 WEEKS, don't want that old shy self conscious Anagha anymore. Kick old corroded habits, now evolve into new me!
The future begins here :)
Stay Amazing always, like you was always.
Happy birthday 21 birthday to me very soon!😋🔥😌😈
Happy birthday 21 birthday to me very soon!😋🔥😌😈
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