Future plans
I'm thinking about giving plab.
Because uk would be a better choice I want a better future for me. That would give me better salary, more independence, living the way I want, more free hours, less hectic, away from people I hate, can go to party, can be a a new version of me, confident and a smart girl I dream for myself, can date and fall in love, away from conservative shackles, travel and explore and experience many amazing things in life :)
Drawback is staying away from family is hard, I can't let my old parents stay here all alone. I should be a helping hand at the same time I can't let my dreams go...
Also home sickness and missing my relatives who I grow up with..
Also missing my land, many ordinary yet amazing simple things life has to offer here..
Settling here is a big deal, my life will be confined and gonna just be a wife and doctor, but never going to be a mom anyways.
The life will be narrow here. I really don't want that, those hectic hours and minimum salary sucks. I'd have stayed here if salary was good, so I can save and travel every now and then, but what sucks is merage salary added to that hectic suffering life with severe less social life and yeah my introverted life here atm I wanted to avoid many toxic connections I've here..
But honestly saying I love my immediate relatives, I wish I could take them but nah, it's a choice between this or that. I've to take a decision which is best for me, god knows which is best for me, more than me, I hope he will guide me..
USA would be a nice option too, but it's not feasible, since requires good recommendations and connections and also it's very hard requires lot of things, which half of them I can't, usmle is specifically for rich kids who can afford, the us clinical experience and those exuberant expenses and not for normal people like us...
Also there are few drawbacks.. like I've heard of racism, crime, all those just scares me, there maybe few nice people but all those limitations from bad news I've heard of there is a turn off.
But its actually good place to explore although plab would be a better choice because its affordable and less expensive and exams are much easier, about residency idk, I've to grab more information about it, maybe in coming days...
Yea Europe had many awesome places to explore.. so it's a better choice for me. But people who are native indian americans are lucky, tho its corrupt but less than india, still it's a better place to live..
Comparing india.. I literally hate north India and stupid people and ideologies there.. also Indian conservative society and narrow minded people, traditions, stupid religious fanatics, Hinduism, toxic society, casteism, corrupt, government, lot of pathetic news I hear everyday in tv just makes me sad.. I can't do anything, I'm just a average citizen. Also annoying media and fanactism over celebrities sucks, stupid movies yeah I can avoid that but rest of shits I hate it. I'm not proud of being an Indian tbh,
But I just love my family and my kerala. If I'd be born anywhere in india, it would be only my kerala. I just hate rest of India.
We malayali's are the best. My home land and our culture expert few I dislike. :)
Ofcourse I love my immediate relatives and family. I wish I could stay forver with them, but yeah idk what future holds.
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