One of my weirdest hobby is.. naked self talk, it's nothing erotic sexual or anything. I think its liberating, being myself, knowing my flaws, my beauty, appreciating my curves.. nothing sort of sexual pleasure, it's just that i get naked and I look at myself in mirror and ask myself you think you're ugly? Now look at yourself, you brave little women, how far you've come in life.. I'm proud of you, i talk to myself regarding my life, recalling all the moments when people made me cry, but I didn't gave up I believed in myself, at the end of the day, all I have is myself, when I'm naked and alone I'm teaching myself how to be comfortable with my own self, honestly I talk to my soul, there's nothing more liberating than this.
In everyday life you see, I'm a sort of shy young 21 year old medical student, my life isn't that great, I've a hard time interacting with people because of my low confidence and self consciousness about my appearance.. I dont have much friends either..
Now in my room when I'm alone I'm all by myself, I do and say what I want because I don't feel like I will be judged. I'm not shy, I wish I could evolve the real life me also like this..
Honestly it feels so good to be myself, I wouldn't trade myself for anything, i own my body, I own my face, I own my flaws, my ugliness and every mistakes I did. I own this body I'm surviving I'm trying to love her more and more.. and not to betray her anymore.. like I did the past by letting people to take me for granted. I won't trade myself for any anything unless I feel like the deserves to own and know me.
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