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To Anagha, with love πŸ™‚πŸ˜Š

What held me behind my whole life was just my own delimiting beliefs and habits, i used to shrink myself, because i saw no worth in me or was unable to appreciate the person who i was, i was searching for people's acceptance to fill my inadequacy, i never believed i had my own word, i tried to fit in. Didn't even thought i am even a person. I was just a side line character. As i tried to shrink myself, people exploited me even more and i failed to appreciate the opportunities life had given me.
My self deprecating beliefs, which i acquired through my harsh childhood and judgemental situations i faced in life moulded the way i was, i heard them and i imbibed those words and belived them, as a young kid i didn't had any idea how to figure it out and sort it out. I lived with it and had to bear with lot of bad days due to my self limiting beliefs.
But eventually it feels like i kind of realised what was wrong and now i am consciously trying to make me a better person. I know its okay to be me, i try my best every single day, its always great to be alive..πŸ™‚
Last day when i met with an accident, the moment when i faced death eye to eye, that moment made me realise how much i crave to live and to be alive, to do things, to smile, to love, to laugh with my family, to joke with my cousins, to listen to music, to wake up at 5ams, to talk about what i feel and think.. its beautiful to have a life.😊
Its beautiful to be me. 

I am not my parents, they held me and their beliefs held me behind for so long, but now i have grown up and realised where it all went wrong, them or those beliefs is not what that defines me...
I am more than what they or anybody else thinks of me. I made it though life and got this far. Ofcourse my mother's prayers and if it was without their help i would have been nothing, i definitely acknowledge that but what i meant is i am a conscious woman and the view the world through my eyes, the views or narrow mindedness i had once doesn't have to hold me behind anymore.
I am not liable or obligated to be the person who i was once, the beliefs which held me behind to dictate my life.  i am leaving them behind. 
I will try my best everyday.
I believe in myself. 
I am worthy and accomplished womenπŸ˜ŠπŸ˜‡
I will be kinder but not to the assholes who put me down, i have to be assertive at the Same time ☺πŸ€—
Outgrow yourself every single day.
Do what you owe to do.
😊
Try to be your Authentic self.
Fall in love with the moments.
You live only once. 
Its so beautiful to be alive...
Realise the beauty in you πŸ™‚πŸ˜Š

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