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i would have died..

This is the first time in my life, i have ever met with an accident. 
My loving parents finally brought a scooter for me last month after a long struggle and hardwork.
Since then everyday i used to ride it on our nearby road which is free of any vehicle.
Recently i started to practice on road.. so that i can commute to college all by my own. 
Well our public road here is sadly heavily populated by vehicles especially at office hours.
Today, I was riding through our ulloor junction, road was full of traffic, first of all i am a anxious person, so i knew what i was feeling inside, a deep sense of fear and uncertainty i was in the left path and i wanted to cross to right side, it seemed like a impossible task to cross in between the all big vehicles, well it was about 6pm, me on a heavily populated traffic road on my scooter all by myself.
In the hour of i exactly don't know, all i know is i was full of anxiousness and was worried about "how will i cross this road?" i was trying to turn on the indicator to right using my left thumb, keeping remaining fingers on the brake, for a moment i was feeling powerless and unconscious, as i concentrated on changing the indicator signal, i lost control over the accelerator... my vehicle was just speeding up, i didn't knew what was happening. As i regained my consciousness i saw myself hitting the car which was just few metres away from me. 
I fell down, my helmet and specs jerked away, I was devastated. I felt helpless. 
I was laying on the road with vehicles and people on them all around me wondering as if what it is happening i don't know, it was just a moment of amusement for them, then a kind minded uncle came to recuse me, he held my vehicle helped me to lift it up and park it aside. I was just recollecting that what just happened. And i really thought that i was gonna die...but i was saved without any major injuries except for minor bruises on my arm. 
I waited for sometime on the footpath, trying to regain some energy, i calmed down, but was feelimg embarrassed and emotionally weak, i was on the verge of tears, in the strife, when i was in the die or live situation only images that passed through my mind is my grandmother, who is waiting for me at the home, my dad and mom who loved me all my life unconditionally and living with hopes for me, my brother who brought my favorite things to make me happy.
And not the random people, not the cute guy i saw at road, not my friends or colleagues or those toxic people who bring me worry everyday, not their images, but its my loved ones they reminded me why should i live and they are the reason.. 
On daily basis, i often neglect my parents and granma, but genuinely, its them, that matters, not anybody else or the unimportant things i worry about every single day..
In the unfortunate moment what if i had crumpled into head trauma and what if i had died? 
This person now, wouldn't be writing this. You wouldn't be reading this, my home would have been a funeral home by now. My parents and family would be devastated... this girl and her dreams, hopes would be shattered forever, she would have left her beautiful body into the burial path, and moving to somewhere unknown leaving behind her life incompletely at 21 and 5 months.

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