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life is going so fast..

Life is going fast and i dont even know what I'm doing, 
I hate that i dont have time for myself these days. 
I swear.
Final year + usmle + research it's too much 🥲.

I dont even have time to enjoy my 22.
I'm almost 23🥲😔 
How fast time flies isn't...
Have i had time the time to sit back and think this was the moment i was dreaming all about!? 
I dont want this moment to go away..
I want this to last forever.

Yes two or three times this year, I'd mention, on my trip with my dad, mom and them. Also on days when i was with Nithya, also with molu,... 
If you remove these few moment I'd say all other people were gross they are assholes. 

Before I came to know about the world, my world was my parents and it was for them my medical career too, 
Nowadays i dont even have time to care about them...
This world is running very fast, even I'm caught up in my own commitment and barely have the time to sit back and relax. 

I could see my dad in the sofa, I'm concerned about his health to be honest. 
I want my parents to live long.
I have never loved.them enough
 
About moving away from India, i definitely want, because other than my few cousins i definitely hate Indian people, my classmates i had enough, i have always been waiting for the day when i could go away from there
 I would never want to repeat the trauma I've been through.
It's such a toxic place..

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