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ah man! it was all so beautiful

So beautiful; I know we always look at the bad sides of our life. But seriously it was quite the most beautiful thing I could get. These people! Also my career ! I always dreamt of it and I got into the best college in my state and tho life gave me horrible bitter experience in early part of college life, but towards the end of the medical life. In last one year, I had best of my life. I made most significant and important connections of my life. Truly great people. Everyone is flawed had Knowingly or unknowingly we all do bad things to each other but it's not like there's deep hatred. Despite all bad things or misunderstandings or rude things between us that I made friendship among truly great people seriously when I was in high school when i really didn't reach anywhere yet, I desperately wanted to be where I am now. But now once through all this, i / we most of us really don't try to appreciate what we have, instead we always cry about minor inconveniences. Like yesterday it was so silly. 🪿

I've told this before, but most important thing in ones like is the important bond we have made with other people. It's what they found in the grant study in London. It's very true.

Glad to have all of them, Anagha has done well! Her house surgeoncy! you made it. I know when we are in our own shoes it's soo hard to appreciate anything! 

Now I know it cuz I took this different whatsapp from my different number because I was feeling so done with people I know in my life and didn't feel like i want to be in contact with any of them so I took the drastic step, to cut off everyone out of my life, i cut off all means anyone could contact me unless they want to call me or normal text message they can do that, so I uninstalled my WhatsApp which is like the primary means of communication here in India, so I removed that no one can ruin my peace, and made a new account ( actually i have a Google storage back up so it's not like I lost chats or anything, and now it's like wow. When the new account is like I'm pretty new to everything. I've my life to myself and nobody can contact me now..

But I'm like wow. It's so empty, my real account was with so many activities going on, all medical groups, people who consider me important and who texts me, all those pg doctors, so many emotions , memories. It's the connection with people I have in my life.. 
So many things!; 
Damn  now I'm realising , life has been great! Never really got the time to appreciate it. I know I will feel this same way when I'm older when I'm in 60s I'll will be thinking 25 was great, but I never appreciated instead used to worry about things that are easily solvable. Same way I feel about now, when I was 20, life was so amazing, I was young, pretty and nice..then i felt like the most ugliest person 🥲..

When I'm not faced with my own life by hand, instead staying back and reflecting or seeing it as someone else's life then it's easier to appreciate tbh. I am free to appreciate all way. also those things I consider as truly a problem or cause of any overthinking really all are just silly things just a single step away from solving it really! 
When i really stepped into another person's perspective I'm realising how silly it all is that i considered as a problem and how beautiful my life turned out to be. Especially because of the beautiful bonds I've made in my life tbh 🥲🥲. 
Life has been never a straight path, but it went through so many loop holes and tbh it made life so meaningful, unless for that I would not have grown up to be who I'm :) . I wouldn't change a thing. i want to truly appreciate all the amazing people in my life. 
Most importantly my parents who are soo selfless, My immediate relatives, my cousin..
And really really important friends like Indu, Jeni, Gayathri, Shilpa, neethu, also my muslim friend ( he has been truly a gift, only male friend i ever had)! Same thing about Gayathri as well they were with me in bad times they know the anxious me and tough me. Also Jeni who was a very important friend in the last one year, also one of my school friend, sneha vibe so much, and man most importantly one of my friend thrayambaka, she was one who helped me through so many minor inconveniences in life. I couldn't say enough. They people made life so beautiful! Also not gonna miss, despite we aren't close anymore, Anju, Beema both of them were important part of my life. But for some reason I had to cut that bond off. But i do consider them important. Also you as well, for bearing with all my rants and vents😇. It's been truly a pleasure.

Anyway! Life has been great, I've been so friend rich 🥹. It's more important than money rich. 

Btw it is also crazy that i worry about something a day and next day I'm like wow life's great 😅. 

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