Just wanted to let you know. I had a great day 😊. I was peace with so many things.
I forgave and forgot and also realised I've made beautiful bonds in my life, my amazing friends and family. Also today i lighted my scented candles after a long time, because I was at peace and was ready to let myself enjoy being alive 🧬 💖.
I turned off the lights and while sensing in the beautiful lavender smells in, I closed my eyes and
I was telling myself this is so beautiful, it's amazing to be alive at this point, I'll never get back this 25, again and this is real and real. At this 25, I got my dream career, and made so beautiful bonds with amazing friends even the ones I don't talk with( I had so many beautiful bonds with Gayathri and akshaya and all) tho we don't talk anymore. But it was beautiful they were there at times when I needed them, and that makes life so beautiful, it's like at different phases I had different people to help me through, what can I say, it's god trying to lead me through.
and also great family, this year while staying at home, i realised tho it's not perfect but I have one of the best parents who cares about me so much, they are my own, just my own,😇
What else do I need 😊.
Also i kinda of realised I'm previlaged, and well off, not really that rich either, but good enough reasons to be happy and lead a proper life. And get whatever I want.
My coaching classes ended. A huge relief, but also I will miss socializing, these days it was my only socialisation where I meet people.. but it's okay!
Next three months I'm gonna be all home..
I made a few friends at coaching class, so one of them is coming over everyday to my house and we study together. So it's not like I'm all alone. Her Coming home is a huge blessing tbh, I don't have to be alone and when we are together it's easier to study. Glad god made paths clear for me. He just gave me a new friendship when I needed one.
Also see, the best decision was changing the driving school as well, my new driving school is amazing 😁, I made friends with girls there and actually the instructor who's a bit older person, who's like a fatherly figure for us, he teach us well, plus he took us for a small trip last day and brought us food he paid for everything. Trip from driving school, so nice 😇. Those people were nice.
Seems like world wasn't that bad. Not saying bad people doesn't exist, lately I did had a bad experience, i am not telling you, because I don't wanna recall what happened, just some girls at coaching class bullied me . I felt so bad and lost for a few days. But then i realised what's there's to lose from few bullies words. I have not just faced them, I had multiple experiences of such, and it's not like I was spoonfed with silver spoon and all rosy and glossy, i struggled with such kinds of people and experiences at different times.
my unitmates and several such bad things, bad things do happen and people do try to defame you and hurt you, terrible human beings do exist. but it's very transient, it's all some life lessons. And these bad people exist, just to teach us life is crude and real.. and help us to be a REAL HUMAN BEING. and what it is life to deal with life and Adversities. It's never a fairy tale.
Well there are people who have it all fairy tales and spoonfed with just good times. But I'm rather happy to have life like a real human being with ups and downs. It does help me to grow as a person.
We have to walk through that, and show life, that you're braver and you're writing your life pages with interesting stories of bravery and courage.
Life's really crude and real.
It's never a fairy tale. It's not like happily ever after. When I was 17, I thought once I'm a doctor and get into med school then, everything will be perfect happily ever after, but actually no, life's lots of life lessons and me surviving through all that storms. Really had plenty of tough days, but also the good side, is despite the bad days. I grew up! With so many beautiful bonds and memories in between. Many of dreams accomplished 😇.
Well I'm glad I got to have the bad days too, I mean only because of that I am wiser and braver now. :)
It's not like I'm all perfect now..but highs and lows come by, a few days was I was struggling so much, but today was a great day. Life's not constant, internal and external environment changes so much and so is life.
I just hope everything goes fine. And i hope i be able to appear for my exam perfectly and do well and get my dream MD and a good college 😊..
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