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This very moment I know i wouldn't get it back, I wanna keep this to my core memory and forever.. staying here at my home, with my dad, by my side doing everything for me, my amazing dad :)
And this beautiful terrace, where I can see the sky, beautiful wind, the breeze, the terrace which has seen different pages of my life, different phases of my life, it has seen me grow up.
Thank you. 
You have seen the crying me, dancing me, everything... This home. this is the place and my everything my dad, mom, my everything. But also I wanna get ahead , don't want to limit myself to this place all my life.. 
But truly this will be everything, only for the very reason, I had so many memories here and my dad, living with him for the past six months, this terrace and my room, everything I'll keep these memories in my heart :) for the person me, where i grew up, my important family, my parents and moments i cherished here that's the most important important of everything :)

I know emotions can't be trusted, i truly learnt that over past six months, emotional you isn't rational you. 
Being human is kind of caught up, sometimes we take actions in between or either on extremes. 
So past six months have truly showed me what's mine, what's not, what's to be kept along in life, what's to be discarded and what's not to be disclosed and most importantly how to love myself. 

These wouldn't have happened if it's wasn't for this six months, the anagha now, i truly love her and I hope she do best in all she does, be honest, be real and whatever you're seeking is already seeking you :) 
Life will turn out great buddy! 
The 25 is great, these days you won't ever get back, do not fret over anything :) what's yours will never miss you i swear. And these beautiful days, be present, be alive, the lessons of past six months was truly amazing, days of self reflection, self growth, what can I say, life carved something beautiful out of my life Eventually. So everything i went through, worth it seems, like, it just helped me what's not real, what's stupidity, what's like being a asshole. 
From the lessons i learnt, and needed shaping, life did it so beautifully!!! 

And last but not the least, i could recall several days of last six months, days of self care, yoga, reddit, ambition, finding the me back, dad's love, facing the reality or starting to enjoy my company, the sky, the wind, or life teaching me what's important, who's important and who's not and how to shed of layers of past, how to wed off things that doesn't align with me, stay true to your purpose and what aligh with you, you don't have to force something you don't want to do or truly don't feel like, anytime feel free to cut off that ties. It's very important for the person you're growing upto and there's no need to prove anything to anybody and anything, we need to just stay true to ourselves :) don't fall the trap of herd mentality which. I've been carrying all my life. That's over. New me is so beautiful, amazing, she's brave confident and I love her. She knows her priorities that's the most important thing. Love it.

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