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It's one days from my neet pg exam and ... One thing I know is despite the shit, I've given my best and now I don't care. I have given my best... And one thing I know is...nmy dad and mom. Ain't I luckiest in the world. Especially my dad. 
Past six months I will cherish that always in my heart. Like really. It really helps me find myself..
I mean I'm in love with this girl. Truly and truly. I don't even have to fake being in love with me.. I know there are parts of her I'm trying heal and be there for her 
But most of all. I love her. 

And my dad and mom..uts been hard showing them how much I love them. I really do... I really do. I know there are things that came along the bad dream of past but finally I got my peace and my loving ones :) 
Couldn't be more grateful )
And the beautiful people along the way... Bjorn, thrayambaka, anju,... These people :) 

And reddit for helping me find myself. Thank you..thank you..


And tommy, I don't even know if it's a real thing.. but I do hope we meet when it's meant to be :) I'm trying to better myself for you. 
Hope we build a good meaningful life together. 

Regarding this exam. I have given a lot of shit of mine. I mean i really did. Now at this last moment there are a few things I could do. I'm gonna do that and not fret over anything else. :) 
Just that's it. 
Be bold, be brave and be you, that's it. 


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