See, I was thinking about my life...
You know getting into medical college was the big achievement then. Sort of yea. But I was so young child who was seeing the world with big eyes as if everything will be fair and cool.
But then faced with reality, tho there were tiny good times. I swear from 2018 September to probably 2023 I never really lived my life. I was been bullied and man I don't know what not, went through truly horrible times.
The lowest most.
Now everyone sees the good built and all well anagha. But there were a different time.
I know I'm not special and everyone goes through something but I can only speak for myself,.
Well it was tough, those aimless purposeless days. I don't blame myself. It just was.
But I'm so glad eventually it all turned great :);
Especially this one year i got to realise so many things and i grew up into who i want to be at 25 :)
I'd say next month, 26, is gonna be my most secure happiest me :)
And regarding losing those people, there's no point in holding on to something you don't really want in your life anymore or people or things that doesn't align with you :)
I know there are quite a few people I'd definitely would reconnect with :)
Who genuinely had good intentions. ..
Probably indu, jeni, Aishwarya nair, anju, vj,shilpa, samru, you know those bonds I've made along the way and I still value.
I can honestly say I made a bunch of truly great people so far.
I'm keeping my circle small and just some important people i consider and value in my life and definitely these people who reached out to me and been with me in my toughest times.
Honestly I'm more than grateful to have these people.well circumstances turned out in different ways.
Even this one year, it was truly great, so many lessons, sat with myself and learning my patterns, absurdity, the reality and everything, I'm sure if i didn't had this year, i wouldn't have probably learned these things or grown up much like I do now :)
I believe everything was for the best!
Well, ammu as well, sneha, thrayambaka, probably Nithya too, some bonds i value too other than from tmc.
Tho it was difficult well I'm glad it grew me up, still growing up now.
It's silly how people think relationship and stuff are everything, not at all..these people, my family, my friends and life is all that matters :)
I know now I'm certain place that I can't really let in so many people who i really appreciate. But I hope they are alright and you know just be fine :)
And molu, I know she's been with me during very tough times i would always remember that and appreciate that.
Well, i wouldn't say tmc was a cake walk, definitely it's been a truly a horrendous journey if I have to say it really.
But yeah i believe it was for the best that it helped me grow up from the tiny bubble I'm in.
But life is all about choices we make. I wouldn't let myself limit myself to that kind of life anymore :)
I know there's a better world out there.
I'd want to go get em :)
I am hoping to get my dream of hopefully and then, maybe move abroad and you know I hope tommy come along the way. I hope tommy shows up when it's time.
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